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June 29 英国病人《英国病人》刚看到开头,就发现都是熟张儿。朱莉叶比诺什,还有挖雷的那个中东人,在LOST里演伊拉克军官。被毁容的兄弟说不好还在贺岁片里出现过呢。 这个世界好局促啊,转来转去,都是这一小撮人给我们讲故事。 后来想想,可不就是这样,我们的生活中也并非面对六十亿同类,也只有那么几十个,或者说十几个人,才是最重要的。非洲没了,澳洲没了,我们的生活都会照常,但是这十几个人消失了,我们的生活也就面目全非了。 June 22 On Air 再看On Air热血沸腾 当初只是觉得女演员好看,过去了这么久再看,才发现完全是磨砺嘛。四个人,都很正直,有理想,只是外面表现出来的不一样。 女作家是最现实的人,从来不把理想挂在嘴上,毫不避讳地说只有俗的剧本有收视,也承认写剧本就是为了收视;她同时也是个完全理想的人,不通人情事故,什么人的帐都不买,爱耍小脾气。 男导演是个理想的人,只追理想,略通交流技巧,不过总体还是噎人,拒人于千里之外的,和作家性格差不多。奇怪的是,看作家觉得可爱,看导演就觉得有点孩子气,不懂事。 男经纪人是直肠子。正直得不打弯,保护演员也是一无返顾。是个汉子,不过受的委屈让人看着太辛酸了。 女演员是个有理想的人,一直要突破自己的演技局限,为了演艺天天清晨跑步;她也很正直,不用潜规则往上爬,还为了报答知遇的正直经纪人而离开了当时很有实力但心术不正的经纪。为名所累,有时被误解懒得解释,就装下成熟。 好像正好是个2 by 2 的 factorial design 啊 表面 正直天真 世故奸滑 有抱负 男导演 女演员 生活化 女作家 男经纪人 比较有效的是女演员,成功之后可以像女作家那样。两个男人都不可取。 说了这么多其实都是废话,就像那个笑话一样:男人看来看去其实只关心一件事,女人也一样。 June 18 Are you bored?Go to wikipeida.org and check out the phrase “Mother Teresa” It will cheer you up or bring you down, but never untouched. Scanned document arrive via email as .dat fileIn cmd, type in " c:\>copy/b a.dat+b.dat destination.dat" Open destination.dat with Winzip, save as. June 17 Practical Evolution There might be something that we can explain with the theory of evolution. Through the reasoning, we might find something helpful to improve ourselves. Let me clarify my intepretion on evolution in case I got it wrong at the first place. I think what Darwin said is that a. mutation, or whatever, leads to variaty among individuals b. the environment inerts pressure on creature, which kills some before they get offspring c. the selective kills change the weigh of various phenomena and influences the race 1. Why some of us faint facing blood? First of all, there has to be already people who faint and not. For nations based on agriculture, like dynasties in northern China, environment is more friendly. Because the majority consume very little meat, and several butcher can do the job for a whole villege. Most of the people don't have to deal with killing and draining blood, nothing can massively rule the fainters out before they give birth. For nations based on huntering and herds, like Han and Mongolian (interesting here, Mongolian is the people live on Monglia Highland, not all the yellow faces), it's a different story. They hunt and raise herds. For good days, they kill, drain blood, skin their prey. For bad days, they do the same to their sheep and cow. And they admire wolf and the philosophy is more like what we call "jungle rules" today. Besides, they have war instantly. So you can imagine how hard it is to be a fainter. You can't hunter, you can't kill your own sheep, all your brothers laugh at you and call you coward, you can hardly find a woman willing to bear your child. In a word, the pressure is huge and fainters are more likely to be ruled out. Another thought is that man are more likely to deal with blood, like hunting, butching, and war. But the good thing for fainter is that once they realized the weakpoint, they will try their best to avoid such jobs, and what they're avoiding happen to be the dangerous ones - hunting, butching, warfare... besides, dealing with blood make people more exposed to pathogens which could be fatal in acient times. They will look for an office job instead of field agent and pass their genome along. If all above is true, Fainters will trend to survive and live even safer in an organized culture, mostly based on agriculture. Should be less in Herds people. And women should be insensitive to selection and remain a natural sample about how possible a new born is a fainter. You don't see female butcher a lot, right? 2. Why are we superficial? We always judge people by their appearance. If she's beautiful, we assume she possess virtue too. This is harder, because the selection is social and more inside human culture rather than facing nature. What I assume is that virtue is related to status, which is furhter related to beauty. Everybody is a mixture of angel and evil. It's hard to worship somebody around you because you see the good and the not-so-good. But Highnesses are able to lead private lives and show virtue when they appear on celebration, speech, march, or charity. They selectively expose or pretend the brighter side to public. And the media is also driven to speak for them. So the majority think people in higher position possess good virtue and are different than their neighbor. How to link status to beauty is easier. Superior pay more attention to comfort themselves while skins of peasants are sunburnt and dried out in hard work. They have gorgeous clothes, guards, houses. All these influence create the idea that beautiful people is noble. What has that to do with evolution? I suppose people can hardly hold neutral attitude towards Superior since they're too unique. If you don't think they possess virtue or they're beautiful, there is a big chance that you are repelling the authority or not slave-like enough. That's something might take your life. But I'm not sure if there is any genetic or anatomic evidence on how the prejudice has passed along generation. Maybe there is, like one of decision-making in brain is in charge of beauty and virtue, and the two functionality walk hand in hand, as the sensor for itch and ache. All the advanced creature who can separate them got ruthlessly ruled out in the shadow of authority. The real question is whether rational individuals still suffer now. And if not, what can we do to disable the instant indication of beauty to virtue. June 03 全局最优 以前学计算化学的时候有一个Mont Carlo算法,大体是这样的:实际中的很多问题都需要找最小值(比如工厂成本,催化剂表面结构自由能等),而找最小值的方法是先找一个起点,再随机选择下一个邻近的状态(比如只有一个描述变量改变),如果这个状态对应的值更小,就采纳这个状态;如果这个状态对应的值更大,就以一定的概率采纳这个变量(对应值越高,采纳的概率越小)。这样做的好处是,你会以一定的概率走向更高,而不会被困在一个坑里只找到局部最优。 思路很清晰。当初学的时候觉得有趣,但是没想到生活中也有范例,确切地说是反例。 比如手机,美国和中国的网络哪个更好?中国。在中国旅行时跨区完全不是问题,在美国,有的手机运行商(比如我的VERIZON),你换个地方它要找半天发射塔,有时还要下载更新才能用。为什么哩?因为美国用手机已经有三四十年了,很多设备制式过时,但是全面的技术换代并不经济,所以很多情况下选择了最省钱的办法,修修补补。这样一来,很多服务还在用过时制式的软硬件,效果很差。而中国呢,有手机才十年,机站都是新的。 工作中遇到的问题也是,偌大的一个工厂流程,你说是怎么想出来的。都是一点一点地找更优(可能是局部最优):要吃面,把小麦磨成粉;要吃得精,把麸子筛出来;要分得清,多加辊子;要吃营养,把麸子也磨了;麸子容易坏,高温灭活。。。每次都改一点,洋洋洒洒盖了六层楼。现在回头看看,一个辊子全磨了怎么样呢?好像也没什么不行。有没有其他路呢?肯定有。 就像那个问答一样:火箭的部件为什么都差不多宽?因为那是列车(和铁轨)的宽,只有统一了才好运输。铁轨为什么那么宽?因为马车这么宽,当初刚有铁轨的时候要跟马车兼容,才设计成这么宽。那马车什么这么宽?因为马是这么宽的,宽度一样比较稳当。所以,火箭的宽度是由马屁股决定的。 乍一看很搞笑,可是也挺无奈的。我们生活的方式,应用的技术都是从人类一开始就决定好了的。最初那哥们儿一站起来,就注定了我们视野开阔但是血压有先天不足。 我们能找到生物的全局最优吗?不会一条死路走到底吧。 如果人类的发展也像Mont Carlo一样,有制度(而不是巨眼英豪)保证我们会退一步看看有没有更好的出路,那制度是什么呢? June 01 制服控此制服控非彼制服控。 今天在YOUTUBE上看到了一段打造日本刀的视频。刀匠和徒弟都穿着白色的传统服装,乍一看很别扭——手工锻炼,到处是炉灰和铁渣,穿这么白,一天下来就灰了,两天就得洗了。要不怎么钢铁厂的工人都穿深灰蓝色呢。 片中说是日本人把锻刀当成是神圣的事,所以要表示敬意,好像说不通。不过我找到一个和这个差不多的答案。 制服控——制服会影响人的行为。 日本人打刀说实话是科学而不是工程,成本高,技术要求高,易折损,根本没法大规模装备部队。但是日本人能打造出这样“科学”的刀,我觉得跟他们敬业精神有关。实际生产嘛,书上说一定要方形的生铁块,到执行时差不多方就行了;师傅说粘土和水要1:1,真活水的时候大约一瓢就行了。很多这样的大约,到最后就谬以千里了。我觉得日本人之所以能成功,就是因为这种严格,而这种严格,不是说你敬神就能做到的,你敬神一天,敬神一年,但是对看不见摸不着的东西,你能几代人如一地敬吗?这是一种近于自负的执着,而这种执着并不只为天才所有。这是因为大家都穿着白衣,这种不合常理的制服让工匠们意识到自己在从事一件重要的工作,产生一种叫做Professional的感情。这时他就会努力去做好,严格依照计划,因为他的作品不只是产品,而是他自身的象征。最好的一点还是你会不自觉地去严谨,而不用时刻告诉自己这是对将来好。 其实道理很简单:我爱穿西装,因为显得专业,所以穿西装的时候我会不自觉地把背挺直;古时重要场合要沐浴更衣,不光是这样的程序让被见者感到受尊重,更重要的是晋见者在整个过程中就培养起虔诚的情绪,到上场的时候就没什么世俗的影子了;早上起来要是来不及洗脸,一天都打不起精神(很奇怪,到公司再洗都不行),但是要是早起十分钟,洗刮干净,自己都觉得更愿意与人交谈。。。。。。 过去的很多事情你现在回想起来都不知道是怎么做到的,其实很多都是把这种感情培养起来了,就自然而然地做到了。而培养这种感情最便捷的方式就是规定,其中首推制服。 May 26 Winner takes allFelt kinda quiet in the small studio. Searching for an online movie to play as a background. There were a lot of new stuff out there but I chose not to explore. Bitter experience taught me 90% of every year’s releases are garbage material. Chinese is a standing-out. Hundreds of them made each year recently, what’s left in memory? Nothing. I clicked “The Rock” again, one of my favorite. It made me wonder why I refer to old friends like “The Rock” “Braveheart” and “Dreams may come true” again and again, and again, while leaving a lot unexplored. The truth is, at least what I thought it was, that movie is not about telling the story, it’s stimulating life. Most of them fit neither your life nor your wildest dream, we call them waste of time; the rest few make you cry or wanna scream out of excitement, that’s the winner. And winner takes all. Just like the silver fox said: “… Your best? Losers are always whining about their best, while winners go home with prom queen …” While FYI, She is the prom queen. May 23 Fill life with music 终于有个大假,能够放松地为所欲为,听歌看书。 书看得不错,间歇性地睡了三觉。。。 听歌倒是很有趣: 看麦当娜的LIVE,发现真是惊艳,台上的色相至今无人能出其右;歌也很经典,乍一听让我想起来《穿普拉达的恶魔》:“你看不起这些人,孰不知你就活在这些人的作品里。”果真如此,一姐不是盖的。 听Like a virgin,无论到哪下载都是一个小女生的唱腔,我还以为是谁翻唱的,后来一GOOGLE才知道:当时一姐可不就是个小女生。 笔记本的音效太差,把细节抹得一干二净,BEATLES的YESTERDAY我整个前奏都没听出是哪首,直到开唱才恍然大悟。。。 听U2的I WANNA HOLD YOUR HAND听得从心里往外高兴,跟着哼,美。曲终忽然感到失落 May 17 绰号为“钢”从今天起,你就是国家炼金术师了。。。每个国家炼金术师除了银怀表之外,还会由大总统赐予一个称号。。。你的就是“钢”(Hanale) ——《钢之炼金术师》 我最喜欢的动漫是《甲贺忍法贴》,因为那是一种深沉不浮躁的酷。紧随之后的就是《钢炼》,故事风格很幼儿,不过其中透出的道理却很深刻。尤其是它的Slogan:等价交换。一开始以为只是一种美好的梦想,后来发现,也许这就是这个世界的真实。 中国的传统道德要求人克己,要求人利他。说实话这是和人类的本性相违背的——大家天生都是利己的,怎么可能像菩提一样割肉喂虎呢?古人想到了一个绝招,叫做教育。 中国的传统教育教人崇高,其实就是给人一个心灵的补偿。我把你的精神世界改造成一个理想化的存在,这样在物质世界里的利他,会让你在精神世界里找到平衡——看上去我是吃亏了,不过我在精神上有优越感,我会觉得我想得比你们得利者更远,我的境界比你们更高。等价交换,用精神上的满足来让人利他,让一群野兽能够和谐共处。应该不会有比这个更妙的招了。 可是问题是,现在没有传统教育了,所以失衡了。 前两天同学去毕业典礼的时候说一晃读书十七年了。一想,可不是嘛。而且说得很准,是读书,而不是受教育。当然,主要是科学的教育,也有语文的教育,注意是语文而不是文化。现在想想,只有小学时有一门“思想品德”貌似还沾点边儿。 说没有传统教育有点过,还是有家庭教育的。不过要想到改造人心这么浩大的工程,只靠家庭的力量是远远不够的。何况高考和大学没让我们有太多的时间和家人相处。社会就更别提了。对比一下吧: 以前读书是要跟着先生学做人,现在读书是要跟着老师学做工; 以前从仕靠的是读四书五经这些道德规范,现在是靠什么我不知道,不过不是道德了; 以前有举孝廉(孝顺,廉洁的人可以被推荐做官),现在孝廉基本都默默无闻了; 以前社会上敬重的是学富五车,现在是财富五车。。。 总而言之就是以前是玩哲学,现在是玩经济,乍一看没什么,其实在思想上是降了一个档次的。 古人比较精,从教育上就开始抓,再在现实中安排个官职,荣誉地兑现。教育人你得许个东西——教你道德高尚,就要让你看到你道德高了(起码是别人认为你高了)会怎样;不能一边教着你,一边让你看到学长都烤地瓜呢。付出得多么?不多。全国几千个官职用谁不是用啊,但是能让全民的路不拾遗夜不闭户,这太高了。 而且教育的力量很可怕。你说文天祥宁死不屈是个另类嘛,不一定,你觉得做个顺民活下去好,可是他觉得这样去死可以名垂青史,起码不会像秦桧那样,还是有权衡的。也有人说了,你这个有点小人之心度君子之腹了,也许人家当时想都没想,觉得殉国是天经地义的。我完全同意,这就是教育成功的例子——让你觉得跳火坑美得很。 火坑用词不当,容易让人觉得教育是奴化,让人损己。其实倒是无所谓,人的选择都是为了让自己幸福。一个人营营苟苟一生,到最后封妻荫子是幸福;一个人觉得自己精神上优越,能为后世传颂也是一种幸福。 再回到教育内容上。大家可能觉得社会不同了,现在知识大爆炸,几辈子都学不完,哪有时间去学道德。这话不光听起来荒唐,实际上也很荒唐。科学技术是为人所主宰的,人的思想没提高到一定程度就盲目把科技发展起来,那才是毁灭性的。就像一个婴儿,你要把刀片和药放在他够不到的地方,不然他可能会伤了自己。而且现在来看,科学技术比思想更容易在短时间内提高。有很多人都是先有了理想,再去学技术,反而动力更强,效果更好。反观之,现在成批成批的大学生都很迷茫,为什么啊?因为大家都有科技,但又都不知道这科技是为什么而学的。 看看宋朝,典型的文官政治,物质也很充裕啊,科技也很发达啊。所以说,传统教育和科技是不矛盾的。 在这一点上西方人取了个下下策,那就是不告诉你要高尚,但是告诉你与人为善是合作的前提,而合作才能成功。可能是跟长期的商业社会有关吧。它虽然还是着眼于现实中的成功,但是在传统教育缺失的前提下,不失为一个救命的良方。 May 14 Swoopo前几天发现了一个叫做Swoopo的网站,网上购物。基本原理是竞价,一次叫价要向网站支付$0.75,价格上涨幅度一般为$0.15,同时把结束时间增加15秒。 网站的口号是“娱乐式购物”,网友戏谑它是Ebay的邪恶双胞胎兄弟。 刚开始被吸引过来是看了它的一个案例,市值$1300的苹果为电脑被$255拍走,很诱人。但是这笔拍卖是“分竞价”,即每次叫价上涨$0.01。这样算下来,涨到$255要叫价25500次,共收费$19,000,加上成交价,收益超过$20,000,远高于市值。 另外网站提供“代叫价”服务,可以在你设定的价格范围内替你叫价。比如,你设定价格在$40~50时代叫价,那么每次别人叫价,网站都会替你叫高一分,所以十元的区间代叫500次,叫价手续费约$400。 网站的商品不是很多,笔记本电脑只有五种,一般高价热门商品都是“分竞价”,在一步步上涨中赚足收益。 对于个体来说,没有竞到的人很吃亏,白白支付叫价手续费;而一般竞到的人会买到低于市值的商品(如果是自己手动叫价,而且头脑冷静)。即全局有一个胜者,大家为了坐到这个位置而争,最后都割肉喂了网站。有点像彩票和赌博,大家都投一些,最后只有极少数人得利,而庄家总是那极少数中的一席。 暖暖洋洋说这要是有网站内部的人竞到了也不交叫价费,那不就是自己低价疯抢,骗着大家往里垫钱嘛。犀利 May 12 1889 The Sad ShepherdThere was a man whom Sorrow named his friend,
And he, of his high comrade Sorrow dreaming,
Went walking with slow steps along the gleaming
And humming sands, where windy surges wend:
And he called loudly to the stars to bend
From their pale thrones and comfort him, but they
Among themselves laugh on and sing alway:
And then the man whom Sorrow named his friend
Cried out, Dim sea, hear my most piteous story!
The sea swept on and cried her old cry still,
Rolling along in dreams from hill to hill.
He fled the persecution of her glory
And, in a far-off, gentle valley stopping,
Cried all his story to the dewdrops glistening.
But naught they heard, for they are always listening,
The dewdrops, for the sound of their own dropping.
And then the man whom Sorrow named his friend
Sought once again the shore, and found a shell,
And thought, I will my heavy story tell
Till my own words, re-echoing, shall send
Their sadness through a hollow, pearly heart;
And my own tale again for me shall sing,
And my own whispering words be comforting,
And lo! my ancient burden may depart.
Then he sang softly nigh the pearly rim;
But the sad dweller by the sea-ways lone
Changed all he sang to inarticulate moan
Among her wildering whirls, forgetting him.
忧伤的牧人
从前有个被悲伤引以为伴的人, 他,被悲伤纠缠的人, 慢慢地走在闪光的沙上, 那沙在风中低吟: 他向着群星高喊,喝斥他们离开那暗淡的宝座,来抚慰他, 但他们始终嗤笑着相伴而唱: 那被悲伤引以为伴的人痛哭, 朦胧的海啊,听我诉说那最凄惨的故事吧! 海浪反复,以亘古未变的声音哭泣着, 在所有人的梦中翻腾。 他逃离了荣光背后的困扰, 在远僻宁静的山谷停下脚步, 向闪光的露水哭诉他的故事。 但是他们充耳不闻, 因为露水永远只听到自己滴落的声音。 于是那个被悲伤引以为伴的人, 再次来到岸边,他发现了一只贝壳, 他想:我要诉说我沉重的往事, 直到我的声音回荡, 让空虚的,但珍贵的心道出她的忧伤; 我应为我的往事歌唱, 我的低语足以慰藉, 瞧呀,我或许能放下古老的重负。 他在闪着珠光的海面轻声唱, 但航道上独居的人把他的歌声当成是含浑的呻吟 连带她令人迷惑的漩涡,一同忘却 May 11 1889 The Song of the Happy ShepherdThe woods of Arcady are dead, And over is their antique joy; Of old the world on dreaming fed; Grey Truth is now her painted toy; Yet still she turns her restless head: But O, sick children of the world, Of all the many changing things In dreary dancing past us whirled, To the cracked tune that Chrono sings, Words alone are certain good. Where are now the warring kings, Word be-mockers? - By the rood Where are now the warring kings? An idle world is now their glory, By the stammering schoolboy said, Reading some entangled story: The kings of the old time are dead; The wandering earth herself may be Only a sudden flaming word, In changing space a moment heard, Troubling the endless reverie. Then nowise worship dusty deeds, Nor seek, for this is also sooth, To hunger fiercely after truth, Lest all thy toiling only breeds New dreams, new dreams; there is no truth Saving in thine own heart. Seek, then, No learning from the starry men, Who follow with the optic glass The whirling ways of stars that pass- Seek, then, for this is also sooth, No word of theirs - the cold star-bane Has cloven and rent their hearts in twain, And dead is all their human truth. Go gather by the humming sea Some twisted, echo-harbouring shell, And to its lips thy story tell, And they thy comforters will be, Rewarding in melodious guile Thy fretful words a little while, Till they shall singing fade in ruth And die a pearly brotherhood; For words alone are certain good: Sing, then, for this is also sooth. I must be gone: there is a grave Where daffodil and lily wave, And I would please the hapless faun, Buried under the sleepy ground, With mirthful songs before the dawn. His shouting days with mirth were crowned; And still I dream he treads the lawn, Walking ghostly in the dew, Pierced by my glad singing through, My songs of old earth's dreamy youth: But ah! she dreams not now;dream thou! For fair are poppies on the brow: Dream, dream, for this is also sooth.
快乐的牧人之歌 阿卡迪树林死了,
译后: 头一次翻译,还是一百多年前的诗文,哭了,整整翻了一个小时 刚看时读不成句,现在大部分能看清,但是看不懂 第一次通读,感觉说的是那首元曲:兴,百姓苦;亡,百姓苦 后来上网看一个英文教师说这首诗是写思想自由,不爱羁绊的。 回头再看,的确有点(人云亦云中。。。) 不过也好,这样我的翻译就无可指摘了:我怎么理解我的自由嘛!
诗文主要是说牧羊人看到草木枯荣,想到历史,想到模糊的过去被所谓的权威粉饰成不容置疑的记载,于是开始发问,成王败寇,胜者书写历史,可是事实真是这样的吗? 。。。。。。(略去无数不理解) 总之说独立的思考,过程是痛苦的,但是能带给你心灵的平静。
不过一个哲人一样的牧人,快乐个鸟啊? April 29 When you are old最近很奇怪 从很多事情上来看,我还是很幼稚,不成熟 但是却喜欢上了古典音乐,还觉得同事的小女儿稚气可爱。用师姐的话讲:喜欢小孩?你还没到年龄吧。 我的坐标到底在哪啊 January 28 It happenedSwinging between asleep and awake
She approached and sat beside me
What's the deal, we just had a horrible fight days ago?
She rested her feet on my knees watching TV
I couldn't help reaching out and rubbing the lovely
She didn't resist as she used to
It was a good sign, right?
...
Then I realized that this could be a dream, a sweet one
But I'd rather believe that she came all the way and asked the landlord for a key
Rationality said it was the former one, with a voice that I reject
Slowly open my eyes, unwillingly
I pillowed my arms and the rubbing hands went numb...
It happened October 12 Won't blink when trade life for these Morning "Sweetie, come say goodbye to dad" Evening "Come and dance with me, through the evening we've been together but not alone." August 26 King of ManchurinPain heals, chicks dig scar, you lasts forever in my heart. No matter what pain I've been through and waiting ahead, I know my ultimate happiness is beside you. In the name of my life and spirit, I'll win you back. May 22 LockoutI can't believe that I locked myself out. Again. The responding machine told me the aid would cost $25. After hanging up, I decided to live on my own. The key was at the far end of the desk, which was also carrying my laptop. So I can't shake it with the broom through the gap under door. What about open the lock? I'm not a mechanic kind guy. But $25 is a jet engine for any attempt. The first one is the clip, after several shots I remembered the recent introduction to principle of the lock. It was totally beyond me. The second attempt was card - paper, plastic, even coda can. Damn it, also beyond me. I gave up. Called the guy. Door opened. "Check or cash?" "Either is OK." "What about I pay you with cash and you give me a discount?" I was nervous and raised "Man, it's a joke" at throat. "Uh... 20 is OK." Rest is story. Boring, hum? That implies you don't know me. |
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